S T A N D I N G
Standing on the edge of forever,
Afraid to take a deep breath,
Not knowing which way the wind
Will blow or the pendulum fall,
Waiting for any signal at all.
Standing at the end of the diving board,
Wondering if the fall will hurt
As much as not know where the limit
Truly lies, what boundary will be
The one not crossed or even approached,
In the hesitance of an eternal moment.
Standing by the sidelines waiting
To be called into the game, bated
Breath raggedly marking the minutes,
Chattering teeth keeping the rhythm,
Syncopated heartbeat pounding in time,
Drowning out everything else completely.
Standing alone at the gates of doom,
Listening for any sign to betray
My feelings, to expose my thoughts,
Or strip away the mask of studied
Nonchalance, as if nothing really
Mattered anyway, as if I really cared.
10 comments:
im speechless
i can relate
liza
http://journals.aol.com/philadlfiagrl/lizaslife
Great pain makes for great art, but it's still great pain.
I hope this is only a picture of 'what if' and not 'what is'?
Hope your Holiday is filled with sweetness.
Treasa
I hate diving boards....I had a stand off with one in high school, it won I lost. You never saw such a belly flop in all your days, my head was ringing for hours...thought I had given myself a concussion....now I can laugh, then it was painfully embrassing. Love your poem....Sandi
I've been there.~Diane~
I hope you don't have to hold your breath too long, for what it is you're waiting for, I hope your days are filled with love, and happiness. Don't wait for anything, just seize the days as they come, and may they bring you all you desire. You are a lovely, intelligent person. Your journals have fed many hungry minds. They have mine.
Sigh...
Once again your words just fill me up! So much said here, so much to think on...I hope you are well...Although I read your muse well.
Hope you had an enjoyable Holiday!
Peace
Jodi
Makes me think of all the times I just went ahead and faced the music...good or bad...and all the times I just stood there and did nothing. I like to think I am a run off the board and go down screaming kinda girl. Hope you had a wonderful holiday!
Dwana
Well, interesting but kinda sad. I know I have been in those moments and the fall is scary yet invigorating at the same time (moments when you truly feel alive), but at leaste when you land, you know how it feels to hit that water below and you no longer stand in wonder. "As the country song goes, Life's a dance you learn as you go, sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow,". I enjoyed your response to my Journal. It is so true. I tried to emphasize my personal responsibility and what I allowed in my life. Take care and God BLess you and yours.
Ohhhh the fear. A place in life that we all have been. Keep writing. I so much enjoy.
sometimes that is the moment you feel most alive
Powerful stuff
Marti
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